Just reading the Paris Review interview with Julian Barnes, well worth a stop…
There’s something about reading writers talking about other writers that makes me wish I could go back and start my life all over again, waste less time watching the sitcoms on must-see Thursday on NBC back in the day, buy myself a good flashlight, and take to reading Russian novels in the dark under my blankets earlier in life. There’s such tremendous richness out there to read and I will never ever get done with it all. Why did I bother with university, with child rearing, when I could have immersed myself in a solitary world of such glory, me, the book, a light source…
My father would tell me I am too social a creature to hide myself away, and he’s right – I need regular drenching in humanity and nature and moving about life to keep my moods stable, and I wouldn’t have given up my kids for the world.
But there they are. The books. All of them, calling to me, begging me to peek under their covers. And the books I’ve already read, who call to me to visit them again, put my mouth once again under their thirst-quenching prose, gulp them back or sip them, masticate them, laugh and cry with them.
How can I leave Nancy Mitford on my shelf for another week? What of the latest Linwood Barclay thriller? Or the beauty of an author as yet undiscovered, who I just know has a book for me hanging out in Doull’s Bookstore down the way?
It doesn’t matter – short story or novel, these books cloak the truths of life in the cover of a make-believe story, so that as you read them, the truths slip out, unseen, barely felt, until your heart senses them firmly ensconced. The story may slip away, you might have the author’s name on the tip of your tongue at parties and never be able to satisfyingly retrieve it, but when the truths are there (see: Nuala O’Faolin, for example), the feeling stays with you.
And that’s the kind of book I want so much to write – one that does just that, curls up inside someone, providing comfort even after they forget my most common name (though I must say DA Brown will give me a great shelf spot, alphabetically speaking).
And I’ll get right on writing that book, just as soon as I finish reading this stack over here…
Write that book DA!
Thanks DA for another delicate and tasty rant. I am feeling so much the same way. Maybe different books but so many and so little time and I keep trying to read them all at once. Kind of like trying to have affairs with too many men at the same time. But you want them all anyway… Why the hell have we only figured this out now??! Big hugs, carol
Don’t wait! Start now. Write the book you want to read. But don’t wait, because no matter how good the idea, learning the craft takes time, trial and error, frustration. In the end though, you will have /something/, something no one else in the world could have produced. It took me ten years, but every moment was worth it.