On aging, and gradually disappearing

I missed my 40th high school reunion this past weekend. I was sorry not to see the gang, the people who had known me BEFORE - people who might have the memories I have lost over the years, the ones I dig for but can't retrieve, unless I have them in photographs. I've lost the…

New Year, new days, no mistakes yet…

Well, not strictly true. It's difficult for a gal like me to get through a day without a mistake or two. I almost set fire to my hot bag today, for example. I've given mixed signals to a friend. Promised myself I wouldn't do that. But I did. Fortunately, I have other things to write…

How will I know?

Oh, sometimes I hate being a grownup. See, when you're a kid, you can spend hours gazing off into the distance and dreaming romantic dreams of life with your dreamboat, think about hours spent together, laughing as you walk along some mountain trail or canoeing down some whitewater river together. I remember spending hours and…

Happy Birthday to me…

So, here I be, 54 and counting. According to my family's average, I have around 6 good years left. Everyone seems to have either died at 60-ish or made it to well over 80. I'm going for option two. Or so I hope. Why? I've accomplished quite a lot in my humble life. I'm still…

I thought you were dead!

It's funny how the expressions you hear change when you see someone you haven't seen for a long time. Things shift from "You look great!" (even voice) to "you look GREAT!" (surprised voice) to "you look ...great!" (artificially bright voice). It's all in the diphthongs, which, contrary to popular belief are not how you describe…

insomnia…

It's a rare thing for me. Sleep and I spend a lot of time together, usually. We enjoy each other's company. I'm awake because my body is telling me it is alternately in the tropics and then in the freezer. I shiver, pull the covers over, sweat, shiver, sweat. It is, of course, my fault.…