The occasional wallowing, or how I wish I could chat with Sophia Loren

I have a lot of friends who are dealing with chronic illness or the illness of loved ones or bereavement or even the loss of pets. So when I saw this article, it called to me: "The Other Side of Grief" by Whitney Akers. The article links to a group of stories about how people coped…

Wriggling the little grey cells

Some of you fearless readers might be aware that I have been fighting depression for quite a long time - say, roughly ten years or so. I figure it was the first symptom of my Multiple Sclerosis. Truth be told, it, and the cognitive changes, are the scariest changes with MS. I truly hate depression.…

Well, F*** it all, anyway.

I'm in a mood. I get in a mood whenever my MS takes a little bit more of me away. When I'm IN that mood, the following things make me furious: Statements like, on the Shift.ms website: "MS doesn't mean giving up on your ambitions, just rethinking how to achieve them." HA! Statements like: "My…

Losing my boss

One of the little things that we folks with MS have to deal with often is the residue of the minimal (or more) brain damage caused by the lesions and inflammation of the disease. For me, it's all about my boss-brain. Executive functions, they call them. I used to have them, once upon a time.…

Dear mum

I'm thinking of you today. I'm not sure why this bright winter day brings you to mind, but maybe it's a confluence of two things I've read. The first was "Dear Fatty", by Dawn French - her memoir, written as a series of letters to people she knows and loves. We never shared Dawn -…

On anger, depression, Robin Williams, Terry Pratchett, and writing

I read an article yesterday by Neil Gaiman about Terry Pratchett, author of the fantastic, funny, wise, and seriously wonderful Discworld series. Neil was asked about Terry, about how he must be such fun. Neil told a story of Terry, about how he'd been furious one time and about how he'd told Neil that it…

Creativity and madness

I've struggled with depression for years. It started with my multiple sclerosis and was the first symptom spotted. Coincidentally, I restarted writing. My family always tells me I'm the creative one, the one who thinks oddly, out of the box (though I would argue my older brother is also gifted in this area - and…

Oh, Mae West, how I wish I’d known you…

"Whenever I have to choose between two evils, I always like to try the one I haven't tried before", she said. She sounds like me, totally resistant to treading the same path, always looking for new experiences, unable to commit to a true path, even in evils. I'm doing the 3rd chapter of The Artist's…

The warped door

In every life, there seems to be a closet of unresolved feelings, undealt-with crises, unhealed wounds. I know I have one, and sometimes  it's all I can do to shove things in there out of my everyday sight so that I can focus on what needs to be done to get myself around in a…

How do you know when it’s ready?

I'm delighted to report my wonderful, smart, and confident niece has written and self-published her first book and is now marketing it to bookstores in her area, as well as on Amazon. It's called "Crescent" and I'll link to it here. When I first heard about this, though, I was startled to find in my…